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i thought i'd post this here since not so many people took it seriously in the other forum i posted it in..
well here it goes, my boyfriend broke up with me about 2 weeks ago..
he hadnt been treating me very respectful the last month and had pressured me into having sex with him on valentines day
anyways, i hated that, so finally after 3 or 4 weeks we were able to talk about it and i asked him how we were going to solve the problem because i absolutely did not like him pressuring me into it (we didnt do it because i knew i wasnt ready) anyways i had the worst valentines day ever. anyways again well i confronted him about it and he got all mad, and said "like i said i didnt mean to pressure you its just this is the longest i've gone without having sex. sorry!" but he wasnt even looking at me at the time. i mean i was all facing him and he wouldnt even look at me that made me even more mad! finally since i saw his i dont care attitude towards me throughout our conversation i asked him "do you even want to be in this relationship anymore?" and he murmered "i guess not..." and right away i'm like "can you atleast look at me? :( " and he sorta screamed but not as much because we were in a restaurant. "I GUESS NOT!" ok i said then i left heart broken. couldnt beleive what i had just heard. since i had to drop him off at his house because his car was getting fixed there was an awkward silence all the way there. when we there he doesnt even look at me again, gets out of my car, and stands for a moment and says, still not even facing me "talk to you later then?" and then i'm like "WHAT? you broke up with me remember? so i guess not.." he waits a little bit then shuts the door.
i was so shocked once again. because i care and love him so much. he has helped me through tough times and i have also been there for him when his father died a few months ago. anyways i roll down my window not knowing what to say then words come out of my mouth "do you have a key?" because i noticed he was on his way to the back of his house.. and he turns back and says "yea..." then i leave, i blurted out crying as soon as i was far away enough for him not to hear me, then and there i realize that he should notice i'm crying for him. so i go back after driving away for about 3 minutes and as i drive up infront of his house again hes sitting on a chair outside next to his front door : / he was probly smoking a cigarrette or marijuana.. i hate when he does that too. i mean i've helped him quit cigarrettes a little but not weed. so
i roll down my window once again "can you atleast give me a reason?" i say.. at this point i didnt even know why i asked that.. he walks closer.. hes now behind his front gate and sees that i'm shedding a couple tears. and says "i didnt mean to say that i thought u asked me about the pressuring you thing." and i was like wtf in my head. because either way if i had asked him "are you still gona keep on pressuring me?" it still would've been the wrong answer because he would've said i guess NOT! again...
anyways at this point i'm like "you know what...." i couldnt finish my sentence. . it took me another moment to get myself back together. as i was getting myself back together hes staring at the floor who knows what was going through his head at this point and then he says "WHAT?!" in an angry voice. i was like "fine, well it was nice knowing you." in a sarcastic way. then right away he imitates me as if i were joking and i drove off..
minutes later he text me drive safe please.. something like that.. i call him it rings once. i hang up because i was crying so hard i knew i wasnt going to be able to talk he calls me back i dont answer and i get home torn apart... an hour later he texts me "i love you. goodnight.." i'm like WTF... i didnt answer. next day he texts me saying "i'm sorry i didnt mean to say that, i felt like you were pressuring me into saying it." and then i get another text "ok, i understand" i didnt reply that day because i had to go out of town as an emergency and unfortunately i didnt have any service. so then the next day i get back receive his text messages and reply explaining why i hadnt written back. then he says "so what do you think?" i text him back saying "i think you said it all when you told me u didnt want to be in this relationship anymore. i thought your love for me was real : ( " then 3 fucking hours later he doesnt really make any sense in the text he sent me. hes like "but beleive me or not. well i have to wake up early tomorrow so maybe we can talk about it then? goodnight.." i didnt write back to him because we always say goodnight sweetie or my love sweet words like that.. and its been 2 weeks now. i'm so irritated and heart broken. he hasnt called me or texted me to try and fix things. i'm sad just talking about it. any comments? advice? sorry this was long i just had to get it out.
i mean we've both helped each other a lot and been there for each other. all of our friends thought we were going to be together forever because i guess the way that they saw us. but i d k what to do anymore. i dont want to call him tho i think its his turn to decide whether he misses me or not right.. what do you think i should do overall?

Post edited at 7:04 pm on Mar. 17, 2010 by l0vel0ve

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